I've always found the whole what would so and so do thing sort of peculiar because honestly you can't think for anyone but yourself. I think Ernie would have had an opinion on all of this and he'd say that it's better to forgive than hold a grudge against someone. Zacharias did sort or sound apologetic the other day. I have a hard time trusting him though because of everything we've all gone through in these last few months. I'm still not completely over the fact he pushed people out of the way as he left the battle and most of us fought but yet he's had the audacity to say some of the things he has.

Even Draco Malfoy has been better behaved than him.

The issue is that Susan, Justin and I have our thing and it'll be weird if Susan wants him around and Justin and I both hate him. It wouldn't be fair to deny her right to have whatever sort of company she wants. I've yet to figure out why he is so nice to her and so cruel to the rest of us. I suppose it's just one of those things though. I suppose Justin and I are going to have to figure something out when it comes to him. Maybe we actually have to be the bigger people here and forgive him even though he's probably just going to be a prat again soon enough.

[WARDED TO JUSTIN]

Come cuddle. We need to talk about the whole Zacharias thing.

This isn't complicated but it should be. I wish Ernie were here to tell me what exactly I should be doing or not doing at the moment. There isn't a My-Best-Friend-Who-I-Loved-Died-Etiquette book that tells me what is appropriate or inappropriate. I can't really talk to Susan about it. I think she'd get upset about it. It's not because she doesn't want us to be happy but because if I let this happen it's like I'm letting Ernie go in a way. Somehow, I feel like if Ernie could say something he'd have been okay with it all. He'd have wanted me to be happy and he would have never stopped teasing me. He probably would have been a bit jealous at first but he would have been okay because he was always happy when I was happy. I know that if the roles were reversed, I would have felt the same way about him. I would have just wanted him to be happy. Regardless of what it meant and it's not that I care any less for him because I don't.

I just.. Life is short.


WARDED TO JUSTIN
What are you doing?

Repairs are underway at the Leaky Cauldron. It's strange being sort of open but not really open at the same time. I sort of miss the hustle and bustle around here but we can't have people hanging around when it's completely unsafe. We're thinking about adding a couple more rooms to the Inn amongst some other things. Uncle Tom and I had a long talk about things. I think I might get to do some furniture shopping for myself. There was definitely something about me being like the daughter he never had and wanting to get a present to keep my mind off those tests I'm trying not to think about at the moment.

I really have a lot of studying to do. I don't suppose it actually matters how I do since I know I've got a place to stay one way or another though. If things didn't work out with this place, I could always go home to dad. Speaking of which, I really ought to work him in for a visit sometime soon. I've sort of been avoiding the inevitable broken record lecture about how it's unsafe and choosing to stay here is going to only bring me more agony. I love him but I really don't think he's right about that. Yay for no pre-testing hives though. It's an improvement from fifth year.

There was something else that I wanted to say but I can't quite remember what it was at the moment... Oh right! A little bird told me that a certain person whose initials are M.C will be receiving an owl with a job offer soon. It's sort of a secret though. No thunderstealing or anything!

Haven't you bastards taken enough? Don't you think it's time you accepted the fact you're never going to win and went on with living normal lives? Is it fun hurting innocent people just because you can? Do you get off on the idea that people might be trying to move on with their lives and every time you do this you set the whole thing back? These are serious questions and I'd like some answers right bloody now.

Telly was one of our best bartenders and he was just trying to make a run to the Gringotts. How do you feel knowing that his unborn child will never get to meet him? His girlfriend came by when she heard the reports and my Uncle had to tell her. You've ruined her life just like you've ruined so many others with this senseless murder. Grow a pair and move on with your lives.

The Leaky Cauldron is closed for repairs of both the structural and staff variety. I hope you rot in Azkaban whoever you are.

I hate nightmares. Seriously. I cannot handle another nightmare.

If I stay busy, I won't have to think about it all.

[/PRIVATE]

I've been helping around The Leaky Cauldron. Uncle Tom has been so kind to me and we've been busy with all the people coming in and out of Diagon Alley to handle family affairs. The food quality has gone up if you ask some of the regulars. I've been trying to talk about adjusting the menu here and there. I might even take a cooking class or two. People shouldn't drink on empty stomachs! Plus with all the people that stay in the inn, it's only logical to have them want to eat here instead of going elsewhere.

I've sort of been forced to take the night off though. Uncle Tom said some rubbish about overworking myself. I don't honestly think that's possible right now. I prefer helping out to loitering, idly in my room. It helps the time pass quicker.

Still hanging in there.